Statistics (22.12.2025)...
Usually a creator, especially at "niche" arts and culture edge shouldn't look about that, what mainstream says, especially not at our "social media" epoch, where low effort too often no, mostly beats hard, academical work.
It is, even at non mainstream area interesting, to what the few amount of people have an entrance and where not. Interesting especially there: age, education level, status at society etc.
About education there exists, less wonder, the fact that especially people who grew up with classical music or have an education there have an easier entry than people who grew up with Tik Tok, Insta, Trash media education.
But, education does not mean university degree - education often is that someone is very interested in the stuff and wants to go in deeper and deeper.
One of my first music fans who bought my fresh on the market Audio CD with my first piano concert 2 decades ago was a farmer at Immenstadt / Allgäu region. He himself plays a classical instrument and plays at a local music group for tourists.
He perceived my first composed piano concert as a "gelungene Sache" translated "successful creation" and that despite of the fact, that this Audio CD was created with early digital orchestras with a lot of limitations - but due to his love for classical music & education he saw the picture as it is and not what could be better in form of the lack of quality and the compromise that not all in the notation defined instruments were at this recording hearable.
Well 2 decades later there seems to be a repetition, a new recording of the by me composed orchestral notation of my first piano concert, published with samples at YouTube is my most popular video at this channel. Maybe because this piano concert is inspired by the "Schwaebische Guggenmusic" or the tonal melodies inside etc., people there feel more familiar than with other expression styles. I don't know. But on Pos 2 there is the short sample of my 4th piano concert which is in my eyes much deeper with more "composition craft" created - at least the complexity of No. 4 is more challenging than at No. 1. Pos 3 is clear, who likes Pos 1 wants to listen Pos 3 too.
That the piano solo pieces are at Pos 4 doesn't wonder - as there happened a many years ongoing slander campaign that I don't play piano and worse - at this video is an evidence sample with a recording, recorded at Modern Music Centre Stuttgart with hundreds of testimonials that's really me who plays his compositions and not an AI, another piano player or that the works are not by me and and and and and... clear that this video is at Pos 4.
A surprise however is the atonal piano solo piece I played some weeks ago at the Berlin December 2025 video - recorded (music and pics of Berlin) with my Linux Smartphone...
That's the positive side - the negative side is, until today there has been below ZERO support here at the environment (besides marginal amount of people) for my since decades happened hard work. None of my orchestral works have been performed here in decades until today - if there happened a performance then always with me playing my piano solo compositions for what I had to pay money (piano rent, room etc.). Worse, it has been discriminated by state institutions and companies. What they internationally tell you in their brochures about their love for arts and culture is according to my personal experiences a 100% lie - the opposite is the reality. More at my website at annihilation or at this blog at this essay.
And here answers to some question music listeners had to me past weeks..
Why don't you compose music for movies?
Well, I'm a freedom loving person who don't want to be a capitalist product. I hate to write "program music" where others tell me what I have to do, what not, and that it has to be mainstream compatible to bring cash and profit ( Is this freedom of arts and culture and human liberty ???). The only compositions in order were for people who really deserve it in my eyes. The author Wolfgang W. Ladewig (Symphonic poems The Shadow and The four seasons of love) and the journalist Karl Pfeifer (Karl Pfeifer Variations).
Elsewhere if I compose "program music" it is about society climate at cities or impressions of landscapes where I'm alone and perceive the "spirit" there.
Finally music for movies can be created with AI with 2 mouse clicks - and I have enough "vomiting" experience with this fascist butt-culture system, where a contemporary classical symphony has less worth than a single Burger at a restaurant - without exaggeration.
I love to investigate and try out new melodies, do research in new expressions and ideas and finally to be a progressive part of the development of classical music.
Why do you give not more solo concerts?
That is easy explained because I have a main fulltime job as computer scientist and database- software developer. This engagement gives me my income at this system.
Further I'm not a Vladimir Horowitz :-) If I have free time to play piano the quality as my piano itself is in my eyes semi-professional - some things are on professional concert level others not. Mistakes are usual and my performances are only for real fans of my music who feel proud to listen the composer playing new ideas and not the hate I've had to deal with which had put every hard work into the dirt in focusing on the not so perfect things and framing them to headline enriched with clear lies and slander. For such a hate environment I prefer not to play and instead of that to do nothing and e.g. lay at the beach instead wasting my time in training hours over hours piano every day, as I did as teenager over years.
But if you want to listen more concerts, especially my orchestral works, feel free to put pressure on the hypocritical institutions here - they really deserve it.
Or..maybe a performance far away from here would be an option :-) Think about that :-)
Do you use Artificial Intelligence for your compositions?
Here a clear NO - NEVER! I've learned to write music over years as an author learned to write text and I see no reason to stop that. None of my compositions have been created with AI and none will be created with AI - I love the process to find out new expressions in e.g. trying out new things at my piano. But, as I love my music together with other artworks I used AI for videos to create images to my music. This was thrilling to see what AI created if I "prompted" draw an artwork to my 4th piano concert e.g.
Besides the composition I love AI and participated with two own developed apps (Ella Artificial Intelligence and the more known Alisah for Linux Privacy Protection Toolkit)
At the moment I do research with local Neuronal Networks - some say classical music and algorithmic mathematics are neighbors. Well at that case it could be true.... Maybe a symphony is nothing else than a complex algorithm too, who knows :-).
Why don't you use opus description for your compositions?
Well, I thought this is a thing of the past and classical music has to deal with to be too often at past than at future. But over the years I've learned that if you have no opus behind your description it could be less worthy. Like an excellent Italian vine who has no Denominazione di Origine Controllata e Garantita - people perceive it as inferior as with DOCG. Well that's established culture too and as my compositions doesn't deserve to be inferior only because they have no "title" they will get one 2026. At the moment I struggle with where to start, with my handwritten orchestral notations written as 14th year old teenager which never had been performed neither with digital orchestras nor in reality and often in fragments existing or with my fully from A-Z composed compositions. We'll see...
How does discrimination of free culture and arts work at Big Tech?
The discrimination there works on a smart way with a hidden censorship. Smart because these platforms sell as "democratic" and for freedom of expression but in truth act exactly opposite. Sample, My posts at X.com never got an audience, after too much critical posts my account got blocked and I got kicked out - but at search engines they sell that this account still exists and I'm in there. At Tik Tok my view counters were frozen at e.g. only 1 visitor over weeks at some videos - so they sell to others that nobody wants to listen to my classical music, further they obviously limited that others could see the videos. At Reddit they were more offensive - they kicked every music post out and deleted 2 accounts by me - for me a clear case of Anti-Semitism as Hitler admiration videos got not censored there.
At YouTube my videos got disgusting recommendations as disenchant impostors, eliminate narcissists, fake piano player etc.. further companies show advertisements in front who discriminated me as person at applications at them .. Additional I've got zero money from YouTube until today...
At Facebook / Meta - I got not discriminated but the situation there was on another way disgusting - there really dirty videos had million times more appreciation than hard academical work. Not a good place to get new people as music listeners.
LinkedIn and XING are worthless too for a contemporary composer. The so called networking there never worked. One Xing innovation group (I was member) owner at DACH region even did suicide due to the disgusting situation there...
That's the situation.
Personally I've developed a resistance toolkit ( Alisah for Linux ) against these "power structures", further I can not tolerate to have e.g. Apps and an OS at my Smartphone driven by companies who treated my engagement as dirt and made me ridiculous with consequences at real life too in form of disadvantages at applications etc..
Positive experiences I've had - Linux community look away - with Microsoft Bing and the Copilot AI. This Big Tech company hasn't discriminated my classical music yet. Same positive thing from the KDE community - therefore I deeply support KDE and its new innovation KDE Linux in development of a complete new OS ... a good place for my Big Tech resistance toolkit Alisah in future.
Is the cultural exchange with Russia ongoing?
No, there is no cultural exchange with Russia anymore. As you see at Rutube, my more than 1 decade old videos there have no resonance in comparison with other, easy created videos there. Maybe my videos are censored due to the current conflict situation.
Honestly said, I hope that they are censored, elsewhere we must conclude that the cultural decline happens at Russia too - the most important culture at classical music in 20th century - this would be disastrous as there seems to be no real powerful counterpart at mankind against the fascist and destructive butt-culture established by Big Tech and Co the past decades....
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